Destruction of Ego, Creation of the Infinite Self

Destruction of Ego, Creation of the Infinite Self.mp3
10 Minutes 36 Seconds. As read by my robot pal Elizabeth from the UK

by Aaron Matlen

Each layer of self has its place and purpose, its value and reason for being. I believe our ego, our oh so human self, is like a bridge. To start with what Nietzsche said, "What is beautiful in man is that he is a bridge to transcendence."

I was talking with a close friend the other day and we started to make up “On a scale of 1 to 10” questions. After thinking a while I asked, “On a scale of 1 to 10, 1 = completely nonattached, 10 = completely affected and feeling as deeply as possible, how much does life affect you?”

I thought about that... and I realize my answer is both 1 and 10. To be completely attached and nonattached at the same time – that is my core philosophy. It seems like a contradiction or impossible to limited conceptions of the self. It may even be disagreeable outright – would you rather be 5? Is that the true middle-way? The true middle way is not a dulling nature or anemic to life – it must not be settling or only valuable as a balancer – it has value of its own, self-sufficient value, divine value.

What is it like to be at 1 and 10 all the time? And how is it possible?

My core philosophy is centered on the Infinite Self. I wrote it down as a book name and created chapter titles of ideas to support it (from philosophy, psychology, physics) when I was 18. I thought, “for another day!” And I still do.

It is only with this conception of oneself (towards infinite, inclination upwards) that we may transcend our typical egoistic, limited, singular conception of ourselves. We open ourselves to the plurality of feeling through the vehicle of nonattachment. We are now able to affirm multiple and fully at the core of nonattachment – realizing the empty-nature, the god-nature – provides the base of freedom to truly feel and expand with no limits holding you back.

What is your infinite self? It is best to start out with the normal conception we have of self. Our ego-self. We are born into this limited conception of awareness. We first realize we are separate from everything else – the concept “self” is created with the “other”(all reality) we stand in relation with. This construction typically stays with us, and makes sense to us in a conventional way. This is how we understand people. But is that our true potential; is that the reality of our minds? Are we limited creations, or is the realm of our personality, possibility and thought far greater?

Too often we underestimate ourselves. But take solace in the human beings that came before you who have achieved such amazing states of transcendence. The religious and spiritual leaders who caught onto a “way of being” and transformed themselves and others! With today’s understanding we can see how and what these people are doing to unlock that deeper aspect to themselves, higher consciousness, the infinite self.

There is a connection between the conscious and subconscious mind that is key to unlocking our higher consciousness.

There is often a question here – why would I even want this higher consciousness? Is this even attainable? It reflects a skeptical feeling, a lack of belief, a lack of faith that will immediately stop any possibility of it happening. This feeling of rejection is what we all start with, but we must not take it seriously, and slowly move towards affirming and fully believing through the subconscious training provided by our active conscious effort. The whole point is to be in a state of affirmation, not negation.

The one "impossible" thing I strive for is Enlightenment. I started on the journey at 13, and it is my deepest life goal. I feel like it involves unlocking some connection between my consciousness and collective unconsciousness – I want to become whole, at one with everything. I may never reach Enlightenment, but having it as the ultimate goal suits me, fulfills me, makes me search and strive for better with such joy, faith, and strength.

As far as the 1 and 10, Attached Nonattachment -- I strive for that all the time, and at this point would say I have it attained. It is pure peace in the affirmation of all life.

How is it attained?

It is all about transcendence. This is not an easy concept to wrap one’s head around. Physically, imagine the conscious meeting the collective unconscious. We connect with a deeper part of ourselves in a sense transcending the “consciousness” we start with – our limited ego conception of self.

Attached nonattachment requires a plurality of affirmation that can only take place in an infinite conception of self, which requires we transcend the limited ego self most of us create and believe in.

To attain this "deconstruction of the ego self" and "promotion of the infinite self" it requires a complete way of being or lifestyle that transforms the mind (the structure) by breaking apart the current structure (limited conception of ego and self) and revealing a higher nature (transcendent of self-nature, revealing all-nature, God, higher consciousness).

It seems like a contradiction to transform the structure of ones mind by eliminating structure, but that is the case. With the complete destruction of the limited conceptions of self, there is also a creation, as is the nature of the universe. The opposite, infinite conception is created, and in relation to all our emotions and drives, this we call God.

There must be “emptiness” of Mind for god consciousness to arise. This is because the ego-self (consciousness) limits and stops the revealing of this nature – one must effectively eliminate their first consciousness in order to arrive at their deeper subconscious connection. It is about transcending our original ego-consciousness by slowly destroying it, while creating a new way of being and processing, establishing rules in the brain of our infinite, expanding, no limit nature. The conception of the infinite self, in harmony with everything, feeling completely and completely nonattached to do so.

One must train their mind so it shapes in a way that can receive transcendent consciousness. The transcendent nature cannot enter a mind corrupted by self-nature, as the belief in self-natures inherently creates limits through the construction of difference and form.

We must understand the all-nature as having no difference or bias, as those are limitations and creations. The all-nature is formless, infinite, and perfect. It is the realm, if you will, of nonattachment -- not because we have nothing or strive for nothing, but because there is no desire as everything is attained. It is the total feeling of attainment, affirmation, perfection, and can ONLY come through a transcending of self.

For the self is limited! created by its desires and wants! its stretched out hopes and needs! it is a state of suffering. What the ego-self that "attaches to things and calls itself independent" is doing is putting a separate value in itself, in its experience, against the things that happen, rejecting the moments it is attached to -- the effect? It is detaching itself from the interconnectedness of life, biasing itself, limiting itself. By becoming the infinite self-nature, there is no striving, no hurt or loss when this ego-self is feeling or experiencing, everything is an expression of our infinite self, beyond good and evil, beyond limitations and dualisms and judgments created by the ego and attachment.

We become our higher consciousness by unlocking it. We realize so clearly that what the self actually appreciates is not itself, but life, and through life (experience), itself.

There is not 'nothing' after eliminating the self, in getting rid of construction, form, thought, and what we call knowledge. Knowledge is always accessible even if we get rid of attaching personally to it. I mean -- do you have to be CONSCIOUSLY aware of your name to know your name? It is already in your subconscious, you know it. As such, there is no need for thought or division as everything we already know and are is "known" and "accessible" in this state of no-self. When circumstance calls for knowledge it arises, -- consciousness is actually slower to process it; our ego self gets in the way of real genius! -- but it is the life dynamic that plays on the ego dynamic that causes the knowledge to arise from you, the infinite self.

What is there after no-self is attained? In the total acceptance of the infinite, of no limitations, of the formless reality (inside our minds) we create a dynamic of affirmation, of expression, of expansion, of limitless everything. We can take things beyond their limits, and that is what is there: awareness of everything as infinite, effortless, and possible. It's very much like faith. The effect is a total transformation of mind that makes every moment valuable, beautiful, wonderful, effortless, and part of the infinite possibility that is always expressing itself that we are now aware of with open eyes, FEELING it happen because we are connected beyond our ego-self, into our subconscious self, the one truly in harmony with the universal ebb and flow. That's my take.

Our own personal mission is to simply get rid of all the barriers to this higher consciousness -- and that means breaking down our conception of self, and our way of experiencing the self. The rest just comes naturally. Over time, experience shapes the mind. Experience consists of our conscious reaction to events, our conscious processing, and is influenced by all our subconscious. Through the active effort of consciousness we can train our minds to process in ways that produce happiness, love, God, or the way of being we need to transcend our own ego. Any of these things, all of these things can be striven for at the same time, and should be. There is not limit to what we can achieve in the infinite world of thought.

It has taken all my life experiences to learn what to do inwardly with my emotions, thoughts, reasons, and beliefs to promote such a way of being.. and it is a way of being, a complete lifestyle, philosophy, belief system that structures ones mind by strengthening this way of being as the main dynamic.

Over time, experience will accumulate this sort of spiritual energy you unlock in yourself... almost sheer will that builds up. It is most likely a connection with our subconscious, our "collective unconscious" that allows for this mental energy to be unlocked where it was otherwise not being used. And that's what makes it so desirable. We are completing ourselves, making ourselves whole by connecting with this deeper part of ourselves. it's a whole new FEELING by way of experiencing life at a higher level of consciousness -- one transcendent of the social, political, emotional, or rational problems of mankind. It's sort of beautiful to not think of ourselves as the "highest good in the universe" but to humbly accept that there is greater than our trivial problems, and not only that, but that we as humans are connected to this source, to that greater understanding and higher good than ourselves, and thus through that transcendence of ourselves, we become our best possible selves. – Which coincidentally does not attach to a self, it just is.